LOVESICK AVENUE

Al mio amore

to begin with, im not sure why i wanna write about those times i had with her. i dont know. maybe i just miss her that much. they say, if you love someone, the 1st face that pops up in your mind when you wake up and the last face you wanna see before you sleep is that special someone. i guess its kinda true to have such feelings. such deep devotional feeling about someone may come out of pure love or through willing heartedness.


but then again, i wish my time with her was prolonged. i know i dont stand a chance. who am i to her now? just a friend? or maybe even worst, someone whom she used to know. i must admit, i changed.she might not even know who i am right now. but then, she must know, its her that i have been thinking of. for they say

A millon words would not bring u back...
i know cause ive tried...
and a millon tears wouldnt either...
i know because ive cried

lovesick avenue

1- What is your real name?
Muhammad Ridhaus Sholihin

2- Which one do you prefer to be call?
I was given the title Sheikh by my spiritual teacher, friends call me Rid, family calls me Sholihin

3- Are u currently wearing something green?
Errr, No. Why? Its not the environmental awareness month right?

4- Do u eat raw salmon?
Can I have it with a tiny bit of wasabi?

5- Are u married? If no, when do u intend to get hitched?
Haha, I have all this planned out. Get married by 25. Have the 1st born by 30.

6- Are u attached or no? If yes whats his name and how do u met?
NO NO! Now you don’t want me sad, do you?

7- If you are attached, would you mind if your girl got kissed by someone?
Kiss on the cheeks or lips? Cheeks is ok, but lips is a off limit ok? I sometimes find it hard to kiss then u wanna suka suka kiss her ah?

8- Do u love answering back?
Ouh, you don’t want to know

9- What is you fav color? Name three.
Black, Green & Blue

10- Why do u like the 2nd color of your earlier answer?
Green? Ouh, its just like the most abundant colour available

11- Do u think u are someone known to public?
People may know me, but I have difficulty to remember faces and names . worst when im caught without glasses

12- Have u had sex with anyone before?
Nolah. Im a Sheikh leh. Cannot cannot

13- Do u like to be hated?
Well, if hated like Hitler? Why not? Atleast I will make it to History books

14- Do u think this survey is stupid? If yes, why? If no, why?Why?
Stupid? Well, I prefer if I answer the question, further question is being asked. But I don’t get it here. So yeah maybe this is stupid

15- What is your fav lingerie shops? Name two.
I don’t do lingerie.

16- Do u prefer to wear G-string or normal undies?
Me? I prefer au natural. And for my girl, booty shorts are hot

17- What is your fav watch brand?
Patek Philippe & Seiko

18- Have u own all the above mentioned watches yet?
I have a Seiko watch. Bought it because I haven’t been wearing watch for months. Patek Philippe? Does imitation one counts? The one I got it at KL night market

19- What is your current addiction fav song?
Ouh for malay songs right, it has got to be the 60s oldies. The words got UMPH. If English, the I guess it has got to be

20- Name your fav blog website besides than your site (list their name down)
I visit everyone’s blog that I know on a daily basis. But there is this one particulat blog, its called the Happeepill. It helps me distress. Go check him out at www.happeepill.com

21- Do u think by blogging can make u famous?
I prefer writing a novel or short stories to make me famous. Blogging is kinda hassle. Once famous, must have to keep up with the blog and such

22- Do u support rima melati adams or ida nerina? Pls chose only one.
Ida looks shagged and old. And im a supporter of local homegrown talent. So it has to be Rima

23- Do u think taufik batisah or hady mirza has the nicest voice? Chose only one.
Taufik ah, he can tangkap lentok beb

24- Are u planning to adopt a child like Angelina Jolie does?
Why waste my load of army of millions?

25- Do u think you are pretty/handsome?
Ouh my, im the most disgusting thing ever

26- Do u rate yourself as caring or understanding?
What’s in between? Im in between

27- What is your occupation now?
Full time student.

28- Where do u usually shop for your clothes?
KL. Clothes there are cheaper

29- Do u prefer dresses or t-shirt and shorts? Chose only one.
Unless im at home, it has to be t-shirt. You seldom see me in shorts. Only for camps, maybe.

30- If you were given a miracle to change something in yourself, what would it be? List four.
Face, body, mind, sex

If you wish to know whats your friend's secret, pass this on to at least 8 girls. Let them know if they got choosen for this survey!
To azie: it says girls leh. But kesian u keep tagging me, I still do it

Al mio amore,

there is a song by our home-grown talent Dick Lee that goes:

When will you go away?
I know you would someday.
I've known it all along.
I've just been waiting for you to say.
this is your time to grow,
so don't say a word
just go
as long as I'm part of you
is all that i ever need to know

I wish i knew if i was ever part of you. part of any memory that is left behind. they say time heals everything,but im still deeply attached to you. its not that i have not tried, i tried my best to let go of this feeling.i just wish she know how i feel.If your reading this i wish you know, days without you is really tragic. Girl, Im sorry

Al mio amore,

how much can one actually endure the pain of waiting? waiting for that someone to realise that we have been waiting all along. waiting for that someone to say yes, even when we our self believe that its not going to happen.


for all this, a wise man would say, time is not the factor. its patience. for if you had asked any mum, they would tell that they wont mind carrying the fetus in her womb no matter how long its gonna take as long as they know the fetus is safe. that is how the nature of motherly love is. they don't care if its going to take them months or even years, they would still endure for they knew the joy of bringing life to earth.


i too, want to bring joy to something. i feel that its necessary for me to bring joy to this world. look around, and we'll see how troubled the world is. but i cant seem to find something that i can bring joy to. in fact, I'm not a joyful person, i don't smile that much. i have too many things running in my mind all at the same time. bless me.


i had wanted to spread the joy by spreading love. but come to think of it, who would want my love?


call me if you need loving
Lovesick Avenue

Al mio amore,

the joy of love is being close to the ones we love. the warmth, the home-y feeling of having someone there for you every time. with time, this feeling grows into us. feeling that the world only revolves around us and our other half. one may see it as egoistic but for me, its the exclusive privilege that is given to those in love.


i say, there are some cases that it doesn't go that way. like for instance, a long-distance relationship i once had. its kinda tough to keep up with such relationship. travelling is one factor, but then the lonesome nights. its more hurtful then not being in love.its those lonely nights where you sit by the window, wondering what your other half is doing. you question if your other half truly love you, is faithful, if the other half is even missing you.


it hurts at times to know that there are couples out there who just cant get along but they still love each other. i have a friend who is undergoing this type of relationship. sometimes i do pity her. she knows that they guy is just not for her. especially when he's fooling around behind her. but perhaps there are other things that i have yet to uncover that made her stay on. my only guess is that she treasure those times when they are OK. it might even me just be purely out of love


Hoping that love would stay pure
Lovesick Avenue

Al mio amore,

i have been keeping this from everyone. but i guess its time for me to let them know. i has been a difficult semester for me this time round. struggling with life, studies and love. 1st few months of the very semester really shows how low i can go. to the extent that only recently a friend had expressed the transition in me up to a point that she doesn't recognise me anymore. not literally but characterically. its like yeah, im different. i dont seem to be myself.


I guess what's bother me is the condition im in right now. i used to belive the saying what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, but now i got a better saying which goes by what doesnt kill you hurts you much deeper. haiz, if only i can express out all my trouble here for all of you to read. this problem has been affecting my life so much. because of some concerns about future problem might arise, i guess i will leave it to those who ask me personally.



till then,
Lovesick Avenue

Al mio amore,

sometimes i do wonder, if really there is love at first sight. if you call it love that is. so what is love at 1st sight? i guess the norm would be falling in love with someone when you 1st place your sight on the other party. its straightforward enough and you can get that literally. if that's the case then, i guess I'm more of the love at first sight person. i mean, i fall for girls this way more often then you see me going to the loo.


seriously i have the hots for girls who have the boyish side portrayed on their looks. i know it sounds sick, but hey, everyone is entitled for their own opinion. i find these girls to be more independent then those girly girls- no offence, i know they are cute and all. but when they get really clingy, that's when its irritating. to be fair, OK at times when they are clingy like when they wanna show their loving part, I'm OK with it. in fact i like it. but when everything i do, i must report, that's what i hate the most.reporting at times should be OK, but then reporting on every move. even my mum don't do that. so its a bit uncomfortable. so girls, especially my future girlfriend, please take note!


OK back to being independent. i find that being independent is important in a relationship. though i must say i myself at times being too dependent on someone. but then again, its bad enough to have one party who is dependent. two negatives does not always make a positive.


I'm the type of person who is surrounded by people but usually isolates from the crowd. be it because i have no issues to talk about or either i make myself unapproach-able, i always seems to be left out. thats why i guess to have a girl who can go around and mingle with the company is better rather then her having to stick with me and suffer total boredom.


there's more to this in
Lovesick Avenue

Al mio amore,

have you ever had someone to slip their hand into your's when you least expected? have anyone gave you a kiss when you werent looking? well, last Christmas, someone did. i mean to me. yeah it was a lovely experience. an experience that i cant seem to forget. been a while i had such suprise. but then again, im single what can i expect.


the tenderness of a touch evoke a special essence. an essence that even science could not explain. each touch gives a this warmth, this passion. each kiss gives off a mind blowing emotion. thats how i felt when she did that. God, i think that how cartoonist got the idea about when one falls in love, there's sparks. LOL


but time after time, thinking back, i think thats the best part festive season. it brings about the closeness with each other. the bonding with one another, and even brings out the love for each other. during these time its good to realise that there is always hope even when time seems to be difficult


Hoping for the better
Lovesick Avenue

Go make your next choice be your best choice
And if you're looking for a boy with a voice, well baby I'm single
Are you in the mood for some dude, are you in the mood to be subdued
Or would you rather just mingle?
Let's get set then to go then and let us jet set we'll be like the jetsons
You can be Jane my wife. Should I marry Jane tonight?

I would if I could. I'd do most anything spontaneously.

Or we can keep chilling like ice cream filling
We can cool in the gang if you'd rather hang
Ain't no thing. I can be lugubrious with you.
I got no ifs ands ors no wits or whats about it
But this place is getting crowded and my house is two blocks away
Or maybe closer

I would if I could. I'd do most anything spontaneously.
You know I would, if I could. I'll do anything spontaneously.

If you could be nimble, you'd have it simple just like me.
So go on and try it, do not deny yourself your freedom.

So step on up to the plate get a date with mraz
See you better act fast because supplies they never last
Now did you know this is limited time offer
So go make your mind up before our times up
You better start winding it up because the party's almost over
(and if you should know girl, go a little bit lower now)

see how I would, if I could. I'd do most anything spontaneously.
You know I would, and I can prove it. I'll do anything spontaneously.

Al mio amore

they say, time is an important factor. yes its true, time is an important factor in life. for with time, one ages, one mature. time is given fairly to all of us. each of us has 24 hours. its on one's account on how to use the time wisely. time penetrates the skin and causes wrinkles, time penetrates through paper and yellows it, time penetrates the walls and causes it to grow and sprouting moss.see, time does have and adverse effect on us, our lives and our surrounding.


however we see it, time does effect us. time heals the heart, time breaks the ice between us and our co-worker. time resolves a lot of tension. strangely, there is only a particular feeling that time do not penetrate. Love.


love is the only thing that is able withstand time. no matter how long it takes, time will never be able to penetrate. we don't grow sick of love, we don't change our love with time. this is the beauty of love. like water and oil, it doesn't mix.


Girl, no matter how long it takes to make you realise I'll wait because i still love you...

Lovesick Avenue

Al mio amore

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Al mio amore,

for how much is the worth of memories if it is not being shared nor being cherished? true, not all memories are of what we dream of or what we want. but then, behind all these memories lies a hidden story of which could not be told if not for these memories. a story that ticks the mind to think what if one had done or had chosen another path. a story that have endless possibilities.


each possibilities brings about another endless possibilities. this carries on till there is no end. so where is this fate that people keep talking about? i see fate as a creation of humans. we write our own fate, we decide what we should do. its only the chances that happen sometimes that we are not able to do what we had planned.


as a person who holds to religion, at times i do argue with myself, my denial self. i try to deny everything about God planning everything for us. i mean, i do agree that God himself has planned everything for us. but what he plans is actually the end. as in what will be of us, who will we get married to and such. but in between then and then, we decide on our own. we choose who we love, what we study, what we work as.


im not sure if im making any sense,
Lovesick Avenue



Goodbye Bonda